This is where I talk about the stuff I'm into at the moment. I would love to hear your feedback below and you're welcome to talk about your own! This page is going to be changing and having stuff added to it a lot, so stay tuned!
4/3/24
Currently listening to: This dope mix!!
I should be asleep! lol oops. Work tomorrow, super lame!
Can't sleep though, I know it's dumb, but I get really anxious the night before I have to work, especially since I've been gone sick a whole week now. My brain is trying to find a distraction so much lol. I really need to go through every single label of my website and rename a lot of them, and make new buttons for them. I really need to write out a navigation plan in my website instead of just half assing things as I go. But then again.....I'm doing this to have fun, if I make it into work, will it be fun anymore? Is personal satisfaction with my work more important that my comeplete comfort and 100% enjoyment of being here? I suppose motivation follows action, and the more I put actual effort in this website (few times, but they're there!) I do feel really good about it! Perhaps my time of leisure has come to a close, and I would like to make accomplishment my focus now. I'm a little bit scared of how soon I'll hit my limits, but I know there's a chance I could work hard enough to keep getting better.
"This story has a happy ending."
Yeah, maybe I'd like to make effort one of the things I look back on when it's all over. I know I have a strange personality and a lot of things make it hard for me to do stuff, but I think I want to at least know I tried. Spring is around the corner. I always seem to grow a bit every spring. Goodnight.
3/28/24
I've got to stop apologizing for not updating as often as I wish I could. Instead, I'm going to accept that I'm just not the type to keep up with things very often, even if I love them. It doesn't mean I have any less love for that thing. Today I am very sick, and so is my husband. We're just here with all this coughing and fevers and feeling really sore ): it's not fun. But I guess it does kinda shake up my brain enough to make me feel like doing something different. Recently I have seen a few Youtube videos that have resonated with me and if you're the type to advocate for using Neocities, then I think it will resonate with you too!
Having a Feeling Instead of Making a Purchase
We Are in a Cultural Depression (my favorite of all of these!)
I Quit my Smartphone for a Year, Gained a Superpower
If you check out any of these, I would be forever thankful. I might actually figure out how to embed these in a seperate page with some other videos in a playlist that I can organize by subject, just so people can enjoy them without having to click away to youtube? I think it would just frame the videos in a better way and I could give my personal commentary on them underneath. Even better, I may figure out how to put a comment section under them so you could give your personal take on them while still on here. I know the comment thing hasn't really popped off on here, but to be fair, I'm not one to comment on other peoples stuff often either, so I suppose I should give before I expect to get anything.
Also! Recently I've been taking more photos with my Instax and I'm really hoping to find a way to make a whole page on here dedicated to all the pictures I've taken with it. So many cute pictures of cat must be shared lol! Honestly I may even make an entire page just dedicated to Constantine and how lovely he is. My spoiled son lol. As always, I'm open for your suggestions and thoughts in any of the comment spaces I've left here. Many times people online will talk about how hard it is to connect with other people, what is it that you think we can do to improve on that? What are you currently doing to make sure your peers feel comfortable casually speaking to you, assuming that is a priority you have? And if it isn't, why is that the case for you? No wrong answers here.
12/30/23
I'm making a "hall of fame" selections for 2023. 3 games, youtubers, and strains that I felt really made my year. I'm trying to not include things that everyone online already knows of and commonly reccomends, so even though I loved the Barbie movie, love playing Baldurs Gate 3, and stuff like that, I'm going to try and keep it interesting for the type of people(that's you!) that I assume are reading. Or maybe I just want to give the indie stuff some love lol. I am SOOOO sorry it's been a while since I've updated but I'm going to really be pushing for this website in 2024. I think if I feel ready and have done enough here, I would love to start a youtube channel. But first, I'm going to make this site into something people can enjoy. I don't think I'm the only pot smoker/youtube watcher/gamer lady on the internet, so I would love to take advantage of that and show people the cool stuff I find that they might like too.
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Edit:obviously this hasn't happened yet lol)
On another unrelated note, I'm really getting into photography not just as a thing I do to keep memories but as a way to really capture something meaningful. Also this fancy camera I've had for a bit is finally not going to waste. Even if everyone hated my photos, I love doing it so much I am not going to stop! So that's another thing to keep an eye out for here.
3/24/23
Recently I've been into curating an older, cozier vibe to what I do. I've been lighting candles, making a warm teapot of tea, laying down on my favorite quilts and just trying to make a cozy space for myself while I read books about crafting, painting, and antiques. It's been fun! I put on some music or rain asmr and really settle into a world away from my devices. I even draw, write in my small journal, and embroider some!
I used to think this was something I had to go back in time to enjoy in full, but that's really not true. You just have to tear yourself away from all the distractions and make new ones that fit what you want to do with yourself.
also
I watched all of Death Note again! It was because my husband hadn't seen it before, and man he LOVED it. Have we got a budding weeb in our midst?? It's honestly a great series, though. Team L all the way baybee ;) I'll probably gush about this more later!
I'm also going back and looking at my old Gothic and Lolita Bibles, I even have an English one (though I know I have more and can't seem to find them).
It's such a dream to look at them, even now. I sometimes think I should start saving up again for a bonafide lolita outfit, that would fit me (I'm a thick girl with a huge chest!) that I could have and wear to make my younger self who CRIED and DESPRATELY WANTED THESE CLOTHES happy. I have some stuff from Milk, AP, and BTSSB but it's all just accessories (and a non-lolita Milk skirt). When I held the items in my hands that I dreamed for so many years to have, I cried. I mean of course I did! Now I'm older, fatter (I consider this a neutral term), and my money is much less than before and needs to go to bills. I don't even know if saving up for something like that would be as worth it as it would have been in high school for me. And what style would I even go with? I think Gothic is the easiest subset to work with, shop for, and flatters my shape the most, but all my accessories are sweet themed. Maybe this is a fantasy that needs closure for the next fashion adventure of mine. It's so hard to dedicate to just one thing!
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